I love God, but I am not sure I mean it.
Have you ever been in a phase where you proudly hit your chest and declare how much you love God, especially when with friends and families, but deep down, you know that’s not entirely true? Not that you hate God, but that your ways and how you reflect who God is don’t seem to add up with what His Words say?
Before you raise your eyebrows, lol, know that I am not judging you at all; I have been in that phase and even stayed there a little longer than you probably have (haha!).
I have struggled with my faith walk. Honestly, I want to believe every Christian intentionally working on having a better relationship with God had struggled at one time or the other. Like, you can’t tell me you just had it all figured out at a go.
The most challenging for me was evaluating my spiritual growth and realizing it was a slippery slope; I fell back instead of falling forward. I questioned if my lifestyle reflects who God is, or at least who He wants me to be in Him. More questions like; am I shining His light in a way solely to glorify God through my works or for my gratification? Is my light turning others towards righteousness? Is my ambition or need for relevance taking me away from His presence? Am I practicing stereotypical Christian humility that I water down how much God has put in my hands? Am I living in love as much as I speak it into existence? Am I getting in my way of growing spiritually? I got so confused about how I could say I love God, and then again, most of my answers to the questions were “NO.”
But before I broke down, He reminded me of how He is constantly working in me and through me.
I know I had to lay it all at His feet and trust Him to carry me and help me gradually become a true reflection of who He is and who He has called me to be. While I am letting Him do the work, I am also consciously putting in the work to live by His standards daily.
Affirmations:
- Today, I prioritize my relationship with God knowing fully well that He would carry me through and through.
- I display the true humility of God by letting the world see His light shine in me and through me.
- I no longer water down who I am in Him.
Have a lovely weekend.
Oyinloluwa Ogunseye
This is an amazing write up and very true too! I remember when I was in school and would do things because I was under pressure to maintain a status that everyone already know me as rather than actually genuinely serving God. I’m not there yet but I’m growing gradually away from that phase into genuine love for God and the things of God. True worship and service 👌🏾
Pete
Well done Yinka, this is very relatable. Thanks for sharing.
Oromidayo
Thanks for this beautiful piece sis 😍
One thing I always console myself with when it comes to my love for God or my relationship with Him is that He sees my heart. He sees the willingness, the thrive to be better, and the desires to live a consecrated and santicfied life. Although there’s no excuse for me lagging behind, His grace has been made sufficient for me… Glory 💃
Abisoluwa
Hi Yinka,
I really do like what you said about consciously putting in the work to live by His standards DAILY!
I learnt that one of these ways is to spend time with God! There is time and there is QUALITY TIME. when you love someone or you’re in the process of loving them, quality time is one of the things that must be invested to take you to the next level!
Ronke
As the deer 🦌 pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you,
The initial fellowship at the garden of Eden is what God wants after giving us a second chance through Christ to be His own. God bless you for sharing. May we keep the fire of love burning in Jesus name.
Oluwaseunfunmi Akinola
This is beautiful, thank you
Ogunseye Oladayo Israel
This is a call to spiritual assessment or what I call self evaluation through the lens of the spirit. God bless you Olayinka for this timeless work and I recommend that believers need to read and constantly check for this “how we work-out our salvation with fear and trembling” and “falling forward ” for me is very critical as we remain in His hands for constant and continous molding until we become very much like Him here on earth and show forth His praise. God Bless you ma.
Tolu Adedugbe
Am I practicing stereotypical Christian humility that I water down how much God has put in my hands?
This!!! Thanks for sharing!
May we shine bright for christ while remembering that all we have and all we are is because of him.